While my first love was martial arts, my second love was bodybuilding. I started working out at 13 years old and though I wanted to achieve that superhero size and strength, I knew it was going to be a long journey. I was a skinny kid, only 116 pounds in high school. Plus, I had an eating disorder that made it very difficult to put on weight. Still, I persisted. 1994 - 143 pounds - 150pd bench I worked out at home and later signed up to a gym. I took every supplement imaginable but still it took forever to put on muscle. You could call it a lifetime goal. I didn't pass 200 pounds in body weight until I was in my forties. That's when I had a serious home gym of my own. I followed IFBB Pro Ben Pakulski's MI40 interactive training program and finally I was the monster I always wanted to be. 2020 - 224 pounds - 250pd bench It was in 2020 that I got to achieve a related goal in attending the Mr. Olympia competition. Normally the big contest took place in Las Vegas but due to th...

  We all have moments of torment so traumatic that it leaves a mark. My divorce was shocking and unexpected, those break ups are the worst. Overcoming feelings of betrayal and broken promises can crush a person's belief in others. That makes it difficult to trust and move on.  Finding myself in a new relationship while also dealing with the pain of the last one has been no easy task. Walk With Me is a request to my new partner, an understanding that I still have things to work through while asking that she joins me on this new journey.  This song is about letting go of heavy, old baggage in order to embrace a new, young love. The vocals express pain and hope simultaneously. There is nothing more therapeutic than taking someone's hand and walking towards a better tomorrow. Listen to Walk With Me    Spotify     Apple Music

   Long before I discovered girls, I had a boyfriend. From the ages 13 to 19, I had a secret relationship with my best friend. Back in the 1980's you had to keep that type of thing a secret. Ever since then I have had a series of relationships with women but I still have an eye for a certain type of guy. Bisexual from the start and to this very day. I became a writer back in the early 1990's and one of the first things I wrote was a Gay/Lesbian/Bisexual guidebook for surviving in a somewhat hostile society. Fast forward to 2004, I wrote and published Virgin Gloves . This is the first ever novel in history about a Gay prizefighter. This book was sold on Amazon and in select Barnes & Noble stores. It was reviewed in Ring Magazine and Boxing Digest. I went on to do my part writing about issues affecting LGBTQ+ people. I worked on political campaigns and attended city council meetings. I was a patron for gay artists. Heck, I even clerked in a gay bookstore. Fast forward to 202...

  Imagine a traveling band that performs emo/punk covers in front of live audiences but for every individual song the lead singer is a fan from the crowd. This phenomena is called Emo Night Karaoke and it takes place all across America.  My girlfriend introduced me to these shows and they are phenomenal. She has climbed up on stage several times in different states and wailed to the masses. The audience knows the words to every song and quite often they support the singer by following along.  My Goth Goddess is the story of how she prepares for these shows. It mostly involves picking a song and practicing until it feels solid. The battle of nerves and anticipation ebbs and flows. The rest is all guts and glory. The video below is her performance at the House of Blues in Orlando, Florida. She is doing what I could never dream of, being a star on the stage. I'm so proud of her every time that I needed to express it in my lyrics. This song is for her but also for anyone who...

   We all know how hard it is to start over. The best way is to Live With A Beginner's Heart . This Pop Emo album is 5 songs with powerful vocals reaching out to the hope inside all of us. It's about leaving that soul crushing job, letting go of bad relationships, remembering the good parts of your life, daring to stand on that stage again and ignoring those who try to hold you back! This incredible collection of inspirational, nostalgic and romantic songs will light your spirit on fire. Prepare to feel truly alive again and truly in love again! Beginner's Heart will be available on all music platforms April 21st, 2026 Pre-sales on iTunes April 16th Pre-save your copy on Spotify

  Some of my friends and family were quite surprised by the lyrics of "Who Stole My Vape?" and understandably so. The song starts with an impromptu orgy where a young man lost his vape in a strange apartment. It goes on to describe plates of cocaine with an assortment of unknown people, some of them lovers. Then it gets to the heart of the story - Nepo Babies. "Nepo baby" (short for nepotism baby) refers to children of successful or famous parents—particularly in Hollywood, modeling, or business—who have benefited from familial connections to start their own careers. - Google Gemini While living in Massachusetts my girlfriend and I stumbled into a very large group of Nepo babies. They were mostly friendly for Massholes but we knew there was something wrong. We noticed that they didn't have jobs most of the time yet they always had money. They were in massive debt but didn't seem worried about it. They all had frighteningly huge drug problems. We were invite...

When my brother told me he was Trans and was going to tackle the full change, I was a little surprised. He then shared the long process he had been through. The therapy, the difficult relationships, coming out to friends and family. All of this was in service of being able to live his true self as a woman.  Years later with the process complete she felt so much better about her identity but she faced a whole slew of political and social challenges. This was very frustrating. At every turn people wanted her to defend all of these controversial stories in the media surrounding Trans people. She had never been a political activist so this was a foreign avenue and one that made her very unhappy. I wrote this song to remind people that being Trans is about the individual and their journey. All of the expectations that follow are outside influences often merely tolerated by those individuals. If they weren't being targeted so viciously their lives would likely go back to the basics of, ...